Do you ever feel like when it’s a really important year for you academically or it’s just important for you future, that even though you say you will try your hardest and put all your effort and concentration into it, you never do? Is this part of human nature, to never be able to completely focus on reaching the goal? Can we help it that we get sidetracked and our original goals seem less and less important to us as we go on once we realize how hard it will be to attain the goal? Or am I the only lazy ass one who wants something really bad but can never seem to achieve it. And don’t say “when you want something hard enough, you will work for it till you get it” because let me tell you, there are many, MANY, if not TONS of things I desperately want SO much, and no matter how much work I put into it and no matter how much I say I’m going to do it, I never give it 100%. Never. I will look back and I can’t even say that I gave it 100% because I feel it is impossible to (my dad would call this being defeatist) but whatever. I still think that not matter how much we want something, our logic kicks in and early on we realize the unlikeliness that we will get what we want, so we give it 95%, and thats still good. That should get us what we want, but it doesn’t. And honestly, 100% doesn’t always guarantee a good chance at getting what you want either. It really is impossible to get what you want.
- mom: there's a college out there for everyone.
- me: Ya, but is it the college the person wants to go to..